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speaking out

nobody@vox.com(Miss Spider (Charlotte)) — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 22:48:23 -0600

I keep speaking out and speaking out and speaking out
and making people think
about the things they do that
are not quite right
and everyone gets angry
because they're guilty?
because they have to change some darkness?
shady corners?
I am tired of speaking out and speaking out and speaking out
making people think
about the the things they do that
are not quite right
and sometimes I get angry
because I have to speak
and show light
in darkness
and shady corners
I sometimes wish that I
could be
silent....

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Rep. Wilson what were you thinking?

nobody@vox.com(Miss Spider (Charlotte)) — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 08:30:30 -0500

Both Sides Condemn Outburst;

Wilson Apologizes

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By Jonathan Allen and Adjoa Adofo, CQ Staff Jonathan Allen And Adjoa Adofo, Cq Staff – Wed Sep 9, 11:32 pm ET

Republican Rep.Joe Wilson shouted "Lie! You lie," at President Barack Obama during Wednesday's address to a joint session of Congress, earning repudiations from his own party and from Democrats.

Wilson took exception to a passage in Obama's speech on health care in which the president said illegal immigrants would not get health insurance coverage under the overhaul.

"There are also those who claim that our reform effort will insure illegal immigrants. This, too, is false -- the reforms I'm proposing would not apply to those who are here illegally," Obama said.

Wilson answered the comment with his outburst, loud enough to be picked up on television and in such an unusually disruptive fashion as to merit reprimands from across the political spectrum.

House Majority Whip James E. Clyburn, a fellow South Carolinian, said Wilson's heckling was more damaging to South Carolina's reputation than the exploits of Republican Gov. Mark Sanford, who admitted to having an extramarital affair with an Argentinian woman.

"I thought he [the governor] had embarrassed us as much as we could be embarrassed. But to have a congressman use the floor of the House of Representatives in a joint session to insult the president the way Joe Wilson did is as embarrassing as anything anyone could think of," Clyburn said. "Our state can do without this."

Arizona Sen. John McCain, the 2008 Republican presidential nominee and a fellow veteran, denounced the comment as "totally disrespectful and called on Wilson to "apologize immediately" during a post-speech interview on CNN.

A few hours later, he issued a written statement, saying he had called White House Chief of Staff Rahm Emanuel and apologized.

"I let my emotions get the best of me," Wilson said. "While I disagree with the president's statement, my comments were inappropriate and regrettable. I extend sincere apologies to the president for this lack of civility."

The timing could not have been worse: Wilson's son, Alan Wilson, launched a bid Tuesday for state attorney general.

And Wilson himself is facing the possibility of a credible rematch of his narrow 2008 victory over Marine Corps veteran and Democrat Rob Miller, which Wilson won with 53.7 percent of the vote.

Miller received a flood of online donations in the hour after the speech, according to Democratic Congressional Campaign Committee officials, with one estimate pegging the number of contributions at more than 200.

A Democratic operative with experience in South Carolina said Wilson's treatment of the commander in chief could cost him among the district's sizable military population.

"You have a lot of military folks who, even when they don't agree with the president politically, have a lot of respect for the institution itself," the operative said. "Before the speech, I would have said Joe Wilson had that."

Clyburn said South Carolina voters may have the opportunity to redress their grievances with Wilson at the polls and elsewhere.

"I would hope that the people of South Carolina will show him, in as many as ways as they possibly can, how insulting this is and how embarrassing this is," Clyburn said.

House Speaker Nancy Pelosi, D-Calif., declined to comment on the matter, according to a spokesman, but Majority Leader Steny H. Hoyer, D-Md., said he could not remember a similar incident during his nearly three decades in Congress. "It is certainly something that should never happen," Hoyer added.

Minority Leader John A. Boehner, R-Ohio, declined to comment through a spokesman.

Members of Congress typically observe a standard of decorum during State of the Union addresses and other presidential addresses to nationally televised audiences.

On occasion, quiet disapproval rises to vocal outburst. In 1999, for example, then-Speaker J. Dennis Hastert, R-Ill., admonished House members to observe standards of respect for the president some Republicans had treated President Bill Clinton in a manner viewed as disrespectful the previous year.

Kathleen Hunter, Jennifer Scholtes, Edward Epstein and Scott Ferrell contributed to this story.

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Economics 101

nobody@vox.com(Miss Spider (Charlotte)) — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 19:50:06 -0500

He who oppresses the poor to increase his riches,
      And he who gives to the rich,
            will surely come to poverty.
                                                King Solomon

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Profound poetry by Kofi Natambu

nobody@vox.com(Miss Spider (Charlotte)) — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 14:42:50 -0500

Credo
by Kofi Natambu

So forget what you have been told
It was all lies. I am not a figment
of yr warped imagination nor a halfway
house thru which joy and sorrow passes.
It's a lie that we are what we seem to be.
Never have I lived yr life.
Never I have seen yr corroded dreams hucklebuck
down the anxiety-ridden corridors of yr past.
Forget what I'm saying to you. Can't you hear
yr own heartbeat? Where are you when YOU really
need it?
Don't hide behind what you think I should or
should not do for you
Forget what you have been taught.
It was and is all Lies.

We are not Conclusions.

My Comment:

This poem embodies how I have been feeling in respect to our current situation here in America. I have heard enough foolishness to last me more than a lifetime when it comes to the subject of our President Barack Obama and his job performance. The expectations people have for him are preposterous to say the least.

"Don't hide behind what you think I should or
should not do for you
Forget what you have been taught.
It was and is all Lies.

We are not Conclusions."

Do you really think Barack Obama is here to make your dreams come true? One man taking on all the problems that we have made collectively, of which some of us unjustly expect him to solve immediately. To those of you who have, imaginary, unchangeable, timetables,and outrageous expections, could you pull it off? Could you jump through the hoops you are requiring of him? This is every man and woman's struggle and we all need to pull together and work together and forget all those lies we've been taught. Read the poem, think about it, and do something good!

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...the seven stars and Orion

nobody@vox.com(Miss Spider (Charlotte)) — Sat, 15 Aug 2009 20:16:43 -0500

The Great Nebula in Orion

You who turn judgment to wormwood, and leave off righteousness in the earth,

Seek him that maketh the seven stars and Orion, and turneth the shadow of death into the morning, and maketh the day dark with night: that calleth for the waters of the sea, and poureth them out upon the face of the earth: The LORD is his name...

Amos

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You can tell him everything...

nobody@vox.com(Miss Spider (Charlotte)) — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 13:09:51 -0500

"Tell God all that is in your heart, as one unloads one's heart, its pleasures and its pains, to a dear friend. Tell Him your troubles, that He may comfort you; tell Him your joys, that He may sober them; tell Him your longings, that He may purify them; tell Him your dislikes, that He may help you to conquer them; talk to Him of your temptations, that He may shield you from them; show Him the wounds of your heart, that He may heal them; lay bare your indifference to good, your depraved tastes for evil, your instability. Tell Him how self-love makes you unjust to others, how vanity tempts you to be insincere, how pride disguises you to yourself as to others. If you thus pour out all your weaknesses, needs, troubles, there will be no lack of what to say. You will never exhaust the subject. It is continually being renewed. People who have no secrets from each other never want for subjects of conversation. They do not weigh their words, for there is nothing to be held back; neither do they seek for something to say. They talk out of the abundance of the heart, without consideration, just what they think. Blessed are they who attain to such familiar, unreserved intercourse with God."
--Fenelon

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Dressed to Seduce

nobody@vox.com(Miss Spider (Charlotte)) — Fri, 07 Aug 2009 21:56:30 -0500

^1-5 Dear friend, do what I tell you; treasure my careful instructions.
Do what I say and you'll live well.
   My teaching is as precious as your eyesight—guard it!
Write it out on the back of your hands;
   etch it on the chambers of your heart.
Talk to Wisdom as to a sister.
   Treat Insight as your companion.
They'll be with you to fend off the Temptress—
   that smooth-talking, honey-tongued Seductress.

^6-12 As I stood at the window of my house
   looking out through the shutters,
Watching the mindless crowd stroll by,
   I spotted a young man without any sense
Arriving at the corner of the street where she lived,
   then turning up the path to her house.
It was dusk, the evening coming on,
   the darkness thickening into night.
Just then, a woman met him—
   she'd been lying in wait for him, dressed to seduce him.
Brazen and brash she was,
   restless and roaming, never at home,
Walking the streets, loitering in the mall,
   hanging out at every corner in town.

^13-20 She threw her arms around him and kissed him,
   boldly took his arm and said,
"I've got all the makings for a feast—
   today I made my offerings, my vows are all paid,
So now I've come to find you,
   hoping to catch sight of your face—and here you are!
I've spread fresh, clean sheets on my bed,
   colorful imported linens.
My bed is aromatic with spices
   and exotic fragrances.
Come, let's make love all night,
   spend the night in ecstatic lovemaking!
My husband's not home; he's away on business,
   and he won't be back for a month."

^21-23 Soon she has him eating out of her hand,
   bewitched by her honeyed speech.
Before you know it, he's trotting behind her,
   like a calf led to the butcher shop,
Like a stag lured into ambush
   and then shot with an arrow,
Like a bird flying into a net
   not knowing that its flying life is over.

^24-27 So, friends, listen to me,
   take these words of mine most seriously.
Don't fool around with a woman like that;
   don't even stroll through her neighborhood.
Countless victims come under her spell;
   she's the death of many a poor man.
She runs a halfway house to hell,
   fits you out with a shroud and a coffin.

King Solomon
the 7th proverb

translation:

The Message (MSG)

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Respectable men...

nobody@vox.com(Miss Spider (Charlotte)) — Fri, 31 Jul 2009 20:46:22 -0500

This morning I was reading Proverbs 31 about the virtuous woman. Today when I read it something caught my eye and challenged me to a new way of thinking. Always before I marveled at this genuinely good woman and made up my mind to imitate her. I read about her husband but I was always so busy pondering her goodness that I never gave him full thought. Today I stopped and thought in depth about what verse 23 says:

***

Her husband is known in the gates,

When he sits among the elders of the land.

***

How could I have missed that? I' have been asking Heavenly Father what exactly constitutes a good man. My heart is unreliable, deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked. I can make myself believe everything good about anything if I want it bad enough. What I imagined to be a "good" man continuously fell short of Heavenly Father's standard. I have been thinking and thinking about this for quite a few weeks and Heavenly Father was kind enough to show me the wisdom that I needed. My conclusion: A good man is respected. He has the respect of people who are leaders. They value his opinions, his way of dressing, his ethics, his treatment of his family, his standards, what he has to say, everything that he is. They respect him because he is respectable. He has high standards. He is kind. He does not think of his wife as a sex object or a trophy. He respects her. He loves her because she is good. He loves his children. He loves people. He has a job that is respectable and worthy of honor. He works everyday and works hard. He does not expect a woman to carry him. He takes full responsibility for his family. He respects his wife's feelings. He comes home and acknowledges the existence of his children. When he talks to his children and plays with them he is gentle with them and genuinely enjoys interacting with them. He is respectable! I have to face it my standards have been low. I have allowed myself to think highly of men who do not possess even half of these standards. I have smoothed things over in my mind. Fantasized, made myself believe that somehow time will make everything alright. Telling myself "this guy is not so bad he will change if I'm good", as if "good" is contagious and can be caught like an illness. What am I thinking? Heavenly Father's standards are high. They are not caught, happened upon , learned at the last minute. They are lived and most definitely lived more then, "three long weeks". What have I been thinking? This is a matter of happiness or endless disappointment. How could I have missed it seeing that I have read Proverbs 31 so many times? I have come to believe that it has been due to the condition of my heart. I have been deceiving myself and not believing that there could possibly be anyone left who is absolutely respectable. I've been wanting to settle because I have wanted a man right now instead of wanting to wait for Heavenly Father's timing and respectable man. Respectable, that is the standard! Respectable! And in case you are anything like me and need a detailed, exhaustive description of what respectable means here it is straight from Merriam-Webster:

** Respectable
1: worthy of respect : estimable
2: decent or correct in character or behavior : proper

** Respect
1: a relation or reference to a particular thing or situation respect to an earlier plan>
2: an act of giving particular attention : consideration
3 a: high or special regard : esteem b: the quality or state of being esteemed

** Estimable
1: capable of being estimated estimable amount>
2archaic : valuable
3: worthy of esteem

**Proper
1 a: referring to one individual only b: belonging to one : own c: appointed for the liturgy of a particular day d: represented heraldically in natural color
2: belonging characteristically to a species or individual : peculiar
3chiefly dialect : good-looking, handsome
4: very good : excellent
5chiefly British : utter, absolute
6: strictly limited to a specified thing, place, or idea proper>
7 a: strictly accurate : correct barchaic : virtuous, respectable c: strictly decorous : genteel
8: marked by suitability, rightness, or appropriateness : fit

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Quoted on Tuesday....

nobody@vox.com(Miss Spider (Charlotte)) — Tue, 28 Jul 2009 00:04:30 -0500

           Wrath is cruel, and anger is overwhelming;
   But who is able to stand before jealousy?

                                                    King Solomon

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skeletons....

nobody@vox.com(Miss Spider (Charlotte)) — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 19:20:29 -0500

right now today this moment i feel so useless
so dumped on
so put out so stupid
if i look at my past
there is no good that I see in me
at all
just a mess
messes
upon
messes
upon
messes
and right now I'm trying to change all that
go the right way this time
but skeletons come to haunt me
reaching out at me
out of all the closets
i've stuffed them in
and tried to keep them in
and tried to hide them in
from prying eyes
that see no matter what
today i'm opening the doors
letting them fall out
leaving the doors open
i'm tired
tired of stuffing
keeping and
hiding
skeletons
those friends who are still around
after the opening
will be proof
that they are the ones
who truly love me
skeletons
or
not

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